States of Poetry Series Three - ACT | 'More than just a pin-prick' by Paul Collis

I’d become …
just a public pain.
Did I make you, just a little
… sick?
Make me your vampire, then –
your time.
Take my neck.
Dig deep with kisses.
Let’s feel the swirl of blood.
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Spirit flying time with eagles – where everything’s clear.
I’ll never be clear.
Not in this life.
Not in any time.
But I can’t keep my eyes from this changing sky.
Can’t stop looking into your blue.
Biaami footprints out there show me the way.
You’re there.
You’re every watchtower.
You left your axe mark in Nyemba stone – on my heart.
You made the name and the sacred water.
Are they your tears, great love?

Back in town:
It’s rainy, cold and wet
so cold tonight …
Colder too, because I’m alone
away from you.
And it’s a lover’s night of holding close.
I love that being smuggled into each other’s neck …
Yet it doesn’t feel like I’m in irons.

Paul Collis

Paul Collis

Paul Collis

A Barkindji man, born by the Darling River in Bourke, far north-west New South Wales, Paul is an emerging writer and poet, who works at the University of Canberra, teaching creative writing. Paul holds a PhD in cultural theory and creative writing. Dancing Home, his first novel, won the national 2016 David Unaipon Award for a previously unpublished Indigenous writer and was published by University of Queensland Press in 2017.

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    More than just a pin-prick
    As most people have probably experienced, a pin-prick as a momentary flashing of pain and drop of blood. Not like the serious blood-letting of a vampire, draining you of your blood – your life-force.
    The reflection of self, being a ‘public pain’, is set in a landscape of hope, love and connection to the awesome backdrop of creation. ‘I can’t keep my eyes from this changing sky’, reflects a heart that is connected to something greater than himself, the creator and it’s wonderous footprint. The evidence of something greater, more beautiful and relevant than self. However, being connected to Biaame’s elegant designs and the ability to be cognizant of this connection, regardless of the state of the heart . .. means that connection with Biaame’s sacred water translates into love and the tears of life. That no matter what holds you captive in this life, “in irons”, that the expanse of blue and changing skies are also in the heart of man and not only outside of man. And that expansive beauty and awe of it, also reveals a heart that a heart stone, can still desire to find comfort in human closeness and affection.
    While connected to the country, beauty, life and sacredness of Biaami, that this essence can sustain a man’s heart to appreciate what is good. Love is good.

    Monday, 18 June 2018 08:26 posted by  Chella Goldwin

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