Closer

Chaos and coming of age
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August 2021, no. 434
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The First Time I Thought I Was Dying by Sarah Walker

University of Queensland Press, $29.99 pb, 224 pp

Closer

Chaos and coming of age
by
August 2021, no. 434
Sarah Walker (photograph by author)
Sarah Walker (photograph by author)

In The First Time I Thought I Was Dying, the photographer–artist Sarah Walker brings into focus ideas about anxiety, control, bodily functions, and the uses of breached boundaries. The essays of this book are personal, and readers of confessional non-fiction will delight in their tone: equal parts jocose and sincere.

They document rites of passage: the first time Walker viewed her vulva in a hand-mirror, pulling the wet lips apart to see them stretch. The first time she held a cock, lithe and twitching. Žižek makes a cameo on shame and its antithesis in comedy. Blistex, Hubba Bubba, and the beep test (used to quantify fitness in children and the military) are pinpoints in the vibrant constellations of her coming-of-age memories. These parts of her story thrum, and nuanced moments of growth and individuation follow. Her mother’s stern, anatomical deep-dives into sexual education: ‘This is the closest that two people can get to each other.’ And the voice in Walker’s head: Surely there must be closer.  

Kate Crowcroft reviews 'The First Time I Thought I Was Dying' by Sarah Walker

The First Time I Thought I Was Dying

by Sarah Walker

University of Queensland Press, $29.99 pb, 224 pp

Buy this book

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